Today just seems like one of em days...
Current mood: apathetic

haha this past weekend was fun...Friday, I left work early to go to the fair with Ant and my Bro but my bro, as usual, finds something wrong with the situation to bone out on plans...it's okay. He can think what he wants about the situation between Ant and I...or the situation between my Dad and I involving the Ant n I situation. It bums me out but what can I do...my bro broke no barriers for me in high school and I had to break them myself. And the barriers he broke somewhat for me during college, kinda don't apply since the situation will always be involving the fucked up double standard of "You're a girl and he's a boy...." Go figure...I hate it but it's what I HAVE TO GO THROUGH. It's a constant battle and at times I get to benefit from it but my dad still is weary of the whole thing, as any father would. But I hope he knows that the decisions I make, I am aware of consequences and problems and that if I do anything, I am aware of the ending results. I won't do anything stupid...this is the real deal for me and I'm lucky to have a guy like Ant and if bumping heads with my dad is gonna be the way for him to understand that he isn't going anywhere in my eyes, then so be it.

Yeah, so ant and I ended up going to the fair ourselves and I had a great time. It took a while to get there cuz there was a DUI sobriety check on the way there *sheesh it was like 5 in the evening...ON A FRIDAY!!!!*

Parking: $8
admission for two: $2
A Tri tip sandwhich combo: $15
Carnival games and shoes and a sushi maker $125 plus dollars...
Good times at the fair: PRICELESS


It was fun playing lotto...I won my $ back hahah sorta...minus 3 bux...ant bought a sushi maker as soon as we got there *rolls eyes* knowing full well he'll never make it himself...hahaha then wandering around looking at really cool vendors and then sharing a tri tip sandwich and fries while he sipped a beer and I sipped a soda...the Polynesian garden was beautiful...my eyes still sparkle thinking about it...i forced him to take booth pix with me again and they came out cute...and then the photo keychains were fun...and then, GOSH, the carnival games...he just couldn't stop...he tried so hard and it was hilarious to watch but must be so frustrating for him. He is one hell of a fighter...he never seems to give up. he couldn't get me my kermie but it's okay...i made a basket for him to get him one of those fake pooh bears that has a red heart in it's hands that says "I love you" while he won me the white fuzzy one. The fair pic is sitting on my desk in my room...

Saturday was fun...trying to finish up moving out the last of my furniture from our apt *sigh*...gonna miss that place...that's where it all started...we moved it out and rebuilt my desk at my aunt's place. It was fun...no auntie there...house to ourselves...him in the living room watchin tv while I cooked up some pancakes, eggs, and spam. Tiring day, VERY...got even more tiring cuz, yes, we borrowed his bro's, Frank's, truck...so he ended up borrowing Ant's MR2...but Ant didn't leave his regular key at home...he left the spare (well the really old original)...and yes, while Frank was out with Lil Chris at the cemetary, the key decides to snap in the ignition...lol so we had to drive from panorama all the way to huntington beach to go save the two at the cemetary...we all drove home after that...Ant stayed at my house for a while, resting, chillin in my room watching TV...

Sunday, well...I woke up thinking I was at my aunt's house, thinking it was a weekday and time for work...then I tried to smack my snooze without opening my eyes and realized it wasn't my alarm clock...WHERE THE FUCK WAS I??? It took me a while to realize I was at home in azusa...and it was sunday morning...not monday morning...

LOL

I went to St. Christopher's and afterwards, Ant and I went to Wal-Mart...yeah, u know, my 3rd home...lol It was fun walking down the toy aisle just playing with things...
I went home afterwards...chilled for a bit then went back to his house in the evening...went to his mommy's surprise bday dinner that his sis, anh, was throwing...it was fun...talking with his bro's...playing with his nephews (they wore me ouT!!! Lil maniacs) lol...but yeah...fun fun fun...and then i had to go home...the drive was a sleepish one but gosh, i couldn't wait to go to bed...i was pooped...

This morning...woke up thinking to myself, shit...i have a doc appt. i don't wanna go...but yeah...i was so nervous this morning...I could feel my heart racing and my body trembling...

If I don't hear anything in the next couple of days, I'm good...

*crosses fingers* let's hope i don't get a call...