If u get the chance, listen to Total's "I don't wanna smile"...

*hitting me right at the heart*...hehe

Sorry everybody...i got hooked on myspace and started blogging over there...i'm trying to keep up both but it's hard...

Just in case, here's the link to my myspace page:www.myspace.com/sheena28

If you get bored...holla at me over there.

But yeah...

"You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present."
~Jan Glidewell, columnist...

I think it's true...There's this part of me that holds on to the past because at some point in my life, that was the present...mainly the past that I can remember are good times and of course, who wouldn't want to hold on to memories such as those? I guess I also hold on too the past cuz, well, it made me who I am now...you see me, definitely changed. I was always so bitter...so bitchy...so hurt...relationships broke me down and then I held onto that pain and suffering and disappointment as though that was all I had. The more I tried to open my eyes, the more I lost myself. I was always looking at myself from the outside, inwards. There was no stopping me, really...And I guess that was my mistake...I coddled people never realizing that I can still love someone without holding on that tightly. I guess I suffocated the first couple of bfs...but what is experience without learning from those mistakes? I guess it barely hit me in college that I wasn't changing...when it finally hit me I had already lost another guy...but I guess it was okay. When you start compromising who you are as a person as well as the beliefs you hold, that's when you gotta let things go. It just wasn't meant to be. But sometimes I can't help it-doesn't everything happen for a reason??? I believe in that but that fucks me over cuz then I question everything-WHY DID IT HAPPEN??? hehehe Stupid me...can't let things just be...

I wish I could be like other people and just let go...but that's not me...U enter my life, u stay in my life...that's the way I see things...if I build a friendship with u, it isn't for a short period of time...I'm a down ass chick...u all should know that by now...I have ur back...u need me there, just call me...all I ask is that u do the same for me...I don't wanna look back on things and realize u weren't there for me cuz then I will seriously "clutch the past so tightly" that I would never see past it. Try and understand that all the hardships in my life have caused me to build barriers...some, I know, are unfair to you but then again, understand where I am coming from. I know it prevents me from happiness at times but, sometimes u can't help the things that happen...

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; be kind anyway. If you are successful, you will win some false friends and true enemies; succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; be honest and frank anyway....If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; be happy anyway. the good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; do good anyway....You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway.
-Mother Theresa

Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.
~Edna Buchanan

There's a very good reason why women live longer than men. They deserve it.
~Estelle Ramey

Nature never repeats herself, and the possibilities of one human soul will never be found in another.
~Elizabeth Cady Stanton

No one has a right to sit down and feel hopeless. There is too much work to do.
~Dorothy Day

When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others.
~Peace Pilgrim

We don't accomplish anything in this world alone...and whatever happens is the result of the whole tapestry of one's life and all the weavings of individual threads from one to another that creates something.
~Sandra Day O'Connor

The Energy of My Love Brings Joy

Love is really the only thing that matters, and love is joy...It all seemed to so simple. If we're kind, we'll have joy.
~Embraced By the Light (114)

These things have I spoken unto you...that your joy might be full. This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.
~John 15:11-12

Father, teach me patience, tolerance and compassion so that I can love more purely. Bless me with the gift to forgive others and to respond to them with a loving heart. Help me to bring the very best of me into my relationships and to let joy be the expression of my loving energy. Thank you, Father, for showing me by example that perfect love brings perfect joy.

Affirmation: I love as the Heavenly Father loves, and his love brings joy to my life."