Scary world we live in...

The more I try to figure things out, the worse things seem to get.

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I found out some disturbing news today...if you all remember Kimberly Romo from our class, well, this will be unfortunate to read. I don't understand how anyone can have the capacity to do such a thing to such a nice person. I know she had her moments of kindness and ugliness...but was it worth a death like that? I don't know...

I'm scared even further...so God, who will be the third? My brother scared me last year when Jess and Jen's lolo died last christmas and my brother pointed out the rule of 3 came into play...so last week it was George's dad...this week it was Kim...who is next?

I'm scared out of my mind...

Pray for all of us...

Why does it have to be like that...

Of all things, a person does not want to get the phone call or that text msg or im that says someone passed on suddenly. It hits a person like a rock and you really don't know what to say cuz you either know how it feels or you don't.

I know how it feels...

One of my best guy buds, George, text me last night with news that his dad suddenly passed...memories of my mom filled my head that very instance and oddly, I could'nt remember how it felt...I replayed the final scenes in my head over and over again...I didn't know what to say. There is nothing anyone can say to console a person in that situation cuz at that moment words change nothing. It brings no one back...it doesn't assuage the hurt...it doesn't make a difference. All I could offer were my condolences because that's all I could do. It hit me later how much it hurt to lose my mom...how everything and everyone reminded me...how could u deal with it? You come home and they aren't sitting in their seat...and then u remember...and then u realize...and then u cry. I use to think it was wrong to cry...I would hold it to myself as much as I could especially if I wanted to cry in front of my brother and dad. Why bring them down with me when I'm the one who couldn't deal with her death? But it's normal to deal with death in one's own way...whether it's not to shed a tear or to cry like a baby...whether it's getting angry or getting sad...it's normal.

This is what I can offer:

George,

You are the one who told me that God has a plan for everyone...and when we were old enough to realize that with birth there is also death. I know you are close to your mom...and I don't know how close you are to your dad but that doesn't change the fact that you are probably hurting badly right now. The next couple of days will be a whirl wind of chaos...and then the next couple of months will be a huge transition. But still, deal with this as best as you can. Everything happens for a reason, right? We just have to stop questioning it and take it to the heart and go on. I know how you feel...u know I've been there before. Mine wasn't quite as sudden as yours but still...you know I'll be your shoulder and your rock...whether you need that laugh, that ear, that familiar bball ass-whoopin...=) Be strong...for yourself and for those that loved your dad. When you are ready...I'll be here, with those familiar open arms...

Love,
Sheena



God...bring peace to George's dad and treat him kindly in your heavenly kingdom. Bring strength to the Aguila family