It's one of those days...raining so dang hard outside that it's hard to think on the inside. Walking around in shorts feeling the large wet drops fallin on my calves...stepping in big puddles avoiding a slippery fall...twirlin my umbrella watching the rain spin off into the distance. I hate rain...today just made me feel worse...physically and mentally. I feel underappreciated and alone. No one to take care of me...I'm just alone. I felt like crying today...my body aches and itches...my head hurts...my nose is runny...my throat is scratchy...I just want the world to disappear cuz I'm insignificant in that world...no one notices that I need somebody...want somebody to take care of me. I want to feel safe...
I don't have those things right now...I feel like I'm putting on a valiant effort all by myself and asking myself why do I do it. I give so much of myself and sometimes I just feel like I don't get that back...that I have to remind someone to do something just so I feel like they care. I know, I ask for too much but sometimes I feel I deserve it. I do things cuz I care...not cuz I want something out of it...but just sometimes...SOMETIMES...it'd be nice to not have to hint or ask for someone else to care about me. I feel alone...my dependency is ridiculous and I blame it on you. I didn't need anyone and then you came along throwing everything in my path. I wrote this out on my journal to let myself know that I won't let u get the best of me even though I'm really close...I'm scared...I don't want to be by myself right now...I'm sick and I don't know how serious...some of the stuff the doctor gave me today just puts things in a funky light...one of the symptoms of something worser than a cold is a body rash...I have a body rash...the doctor said my tonsils are very big...bigger than they should be...it's cutting off my air way...I don't want to be alone...
help me...
Songs of the moment: "You" Mya
"You"
I didn't know you'd change my world around
When you came into my life I found
That what I've been searchin' for for years
Is standing right in front of me
Friend you were to me
Whenever you stayed up and talked to me
Now it's so hard to believe
That your here with me
Oh
You
Your that special one for me
It's you (You)
You have everything I need
In you
No one else can treat me like you
Do do do do do
That's why I'm here with you
Mmm
Yeah yeah yeah
The special bond that we share
Nothing else on this Earth compares
It seems like the flower continues to grow (Grow)
Blossom into something beautiful
I reach out my hand to you (I reach out my hand to you)
And hope one day you'll say I do (Say I do)
Anything (Anything)
Everything (Everything)
Hope for your love
Cause
You (Cause you)
Your that special one for me (That special one for me, it's)
It's you (It's you)
You have everything I need (Have everyting I need)
In you (In you)
No one else can treat me like you (No one else could ever treat me like you do)
Do do do do do (Like you do)
That's why I'm here with you (Like you do, you)
Your that special one for me
All I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you
Hey yeah
You (You)
Your that special one for me (You and me yeah, you and me)
It's you (We were mean't to be, whoa)
You have everything I need (Have everything that I will ever need)
In you (Oh)
No one else can treat me like you (Oh, no one else can treat me like you do)
Do do do do do (Your that special one, oh)
That's why I'm here with you (Your that special one)
You
Your that special one for me (Oh, me)
It's you (It's you, Oh)
You have everything I need (You have everything I will ever need, yeah)
In you (Mmm hmm)
No one else can treat me like you (I'll never find another who can do me like you do)
Do do do do do (Like you do, like you do)
That's why I'm here with you (Oh, that's why I'm here with you)
You you
You you you
You you you
You you you (You, you, you)
You you you
You you you
Blink 182 "alone"
Alone
The thoughts, the thing that's I don't know
?
it's all what keeps my mind clear
you laugh at ?
you can do what you want to
I need some time alone
between what answers
I need some time alone
don't talk to me
don't notice me
don't talk to me
don't notice me
It's all what keeps my mind clear
you laugh at ?
not in the mood, not just to justify
not to think of what a lie
you can do what you want to
I need some time alone
between what answers
I need some time alone
don't talk to me
don't notice me
don't talk to me
don't notice me
