I'll do anything you want...anything you ask

It's crazy how my feelings have honestly grown in the past couple of weeks. I hate to admit that he's one great guy...didn't think a guy like him was possible to enter my life. After all the ones in the past who I swore in my heart were perfect no one has ever been like him. It's like he puts me on a pedestal but yet at the same time he's able to keep me at his side. There's no greater feeling than cuddling up next to him and just feeling safe. "Don't worry your pretty lil head..." hehe, someone actually thinks I'm pretty. ::Smile:: I don't want to be falling for him but I'm in too deep. Yes, I am still a lil hesitant only because I know how disappointing I can be to others but that doesn't stop me from wanting this...wanting him...wanting it all. It's some lil things that are holding me back still...waiting to see what happens. I'm waiting for a clear cut sign...waiting on you God...I'm looking at you for guidance. I've been on and off the right track for the past couple of months...where have you been? Di ba, laging tatanong ako sa inyo anong tama at anong mali? Laging mali ang gawa ko. Sana linuwagan mo ang tama. Gusto kong laging magmasaya ako.

O, wala na kong gusto sabihin. Paalam.

Song of the moment: "Anything" *acapella* by DnH

Hello baby
how was your day at work
I bet you're tired
so just sit down
and take a load off for awhile
here's a little back rub
tell me when it gets to be too much
by the way supper's almost done

Oh and I know you're probably thinking
that I've done something wrong
'cause it's been so long
since I've done anything for you like this baby
it's just that I've finally had a day off
to get caught up with the one that I love

I'll do anything you want
do anything you ask
to try to make things easier
you're wish is my command
I'll do anything you want
whatever you desire
and I know it may seem odd
but if you ask me why
I'll tell you why
no particular reason hey
'cause I just felt like doin' somethin' nice for you today

let's go upstairs
let me show you what's next
I hope you like it
it's a bubble bath and some wine by candlelight
I'll sponge you down with kisses
then we can do the business
if you want
the night's still young baby baby

you've got my undivided attention
there will be no interruptions
I've unplugged the phone
the nights all yours
I've been so busy and
perhaps it's my fault
but now that I have got some time off
I'll do anything you want

There's no woman in this world
who can do all the things you do for me
I can never measure up to you girl
but please believe
that I'll try harder to make things easier
to prove I'm worth your time and
make sure I keep you mine oh...
Mood: thinking of you

"I've been thinking about you all morning...I don't know why...don't ask me why"

Am I crazy or what? I've been studying since the day before school started...I'm blessed with a caring ***friend...what's up with me? I don't understand why things are going well but I'm happy that they are going very well. ****** and ***** haven't popped into my head quite as often. I admit they are still in the back of my mind. It's normal though cuz I've always been the type to cling on to some small hope. The feelings use to be so strong but now, they are fading...fading farther and farther away from me that the only person I can see is You (Yes, RON, that means you). Maybe I am ready for a relationship or maybe I'm fooling myself into believing that I'm ready...slowly but surely i'm coming around. I can't help but think about you when I'm alone in my room, in class, at work...in the middle of my dreams. I see your smiling face just staring back at me. You complete my days lately...I'm awaiting for that phone call. I'm awaiting your return cuz I miss you when you're not around...sometimes I even start missing you when I drive you home knowing I have to say bye. I don't know why God threw you in my path but he did...everything happens for a reason. I'm praying I don't screw up...

Fallin' hard...fallin' fast

I think I finally met my match...someone who honestly keeps me on my toes and has me waiting for the next precious moment. He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He makes me wonder...a lot! I always the burning intuition to know everything...so i nit pick and I question. Sometimes I find out too much and still, I'm not satisfied because either it wasn't the answer I was looking for or he's dead on with what I was thinking. I'm still scared...scared to let anyone in again. I don't want to be hurt...I don't want him to get bored with me. I can't live up to his past...I'm just so scared. I know...he knows...I care about him too much now to turn back. I took a chance and now, for once in my life, I got lucky. I'm scared I may say a certain phrase too quickly...oh please, God, don't let me open my big mouth!!!