and i haven't spoken to you in countless hours... and i haven't heard your voice. and i haven't looked into those eyes of yours that melt my heart away.

and i haven't felt you near me... but i haven't forgotten your touch. and i will always know how it felt when you unexpectedly grazed my heart.

and so i lay awake again this sleepless night... and i lay half way betwen your reality and my dream. and so i lay here not knowing where to belong... how to feel... who to love... where to be... what to do...

and so i lay here not knowing...
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if you could know just one thing about the future... just one... what would it be? to know where you will be? how successful you might be? your true love?

hehe. i would ask for the mega millions lotto numbers... haha...

but other than that? hmmmmmm. i would ask where you will be... so i could make sure i am always next to you.

~Words from Jonny Ngo

Sometimes I wonder how some people can put their emotions into words and I just can't seem to find any...I know how it feels though to be lost in someone so much that you can't say a word to say how much you appreciate them, love them, care for them...to say that every moment with them is bliss, a dream, love personified. It's so difficult trying to freeze those beautiful moments in time. I'm slowly working on that: moving forward, being able to do that once again. However, this time, I won't be wearing rose-colored glasses. My naiveness may still prevail but that's given. I don't know if it's that easy to let go of something that you've been holding on to for so long. I wanna be able to see that moonlight at night shining so bright that I can feel it inside me. I wanna be able to hold u as long as I want to and not have to worry about you pulling away from me. I don't want to worry about pulling away from you ever.

Can't nobody hold me down...i gots to keep on movin!

I was on fire today...ballin out of control tonight!!! Poppin j's from beyond the three was tightness. It felt good again...I'm on a high tonight...don't bring me down

First day back

::sigh:: First day of winter quarter...bummer! The play gots to stop and the seriousness needs to kick in. I'm not ready for that...
Well at least I have this weekend to look forward...unless u back out on me ::glares at you:: ::laughs:: Just playing! ::smile:: DID YOU READ THAT, "DO-ABLE"!!!! hehehe Okay okay okay...I won't do it again...I couldn't help myself. LoL anyways, it's 9:30...gotta get ready for class!!!! can u believe it, I read last night!!!! I'm so good! hehe

Here's something you can peek at til I can actually give you some real pix...

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ENJOY!!! I haven't updated it for a while

Daydreamin

I'm sleepy...argh! Can't stop thinking...about you! **smile**...can you blame me? I miss you, "do-able" ~from "Baby J"

I know it's late but I have to tell you what's been on my mind. It's been so long since I've held you close and looked into your eyes. I know that lately it seems that time has passed us by but boy I promise that our love will make it right. The next I hold you...the next hold you in my arms...the next I touch...I'll be longing boy, yes I'm longin for your touch...the next time we kiss let me taste the sweetness of your lips...the next time is all for you...I hope you know this love we have is true~Pinay's "Next Time"

Mood: roundin out the day...thank God it's over

GET OUT OF HERE!!!
I shared a first with you last night...I can't help but think to myself how lucky I am. The things you told me about your past just makes me wonder, "how can that person and you be the same person?" Don't be surprised if I fall for you; you're something different...special, I guess. things will probably become a lil difficult now that school is starting up again. I'll make time for you as long as you can do the same. I want this to work...

What have you done to me?

Msg to you (since you're probably the only one who reads my blog): What have you done to me? I honestly don't know...I'm not the type of person to say "I miss you"...well, at least not to the person that I miss. A million things are going through my mind right now...it's four in the morning...I kinda wonder why you don't call when you say you will. See, it shouldn't be a wonder why I call you liar, at times. I sure wish I had your help tonight. I bought a desk and putting it together tonight was a B*tch. It's soooo unstable right now but it'll do. I really wish you were here tonight...I've been in pain all day...my back has been giving out on me the past two nights...I'm scared =*(...save me...soon...I hope...cuz...I miss you

song of the moment: with or without you by U2 or Utada Hikaru (pick the artist)

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you