I finally found the chance to use the computer over here and check my mail...thought I might as well enter some of the journal entries I've been writing in my notebook.
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12/13/03 Day 1
Gotta have some Gingko
The trip over here was mad crazy fun!!!! Okay, so I exaggerate...it was fun though. Day was crazy cuz I only had a couple hours of sleep...like try two...hehehe...so yeah...I finished my paper this morning and turned it in before I left. Yea, I wanted to have nooooo worrrrriiiieeesss on this trip. But now I sorta am worried about that paper cuz it was total BS. ::*Sigh of relief*:: Chilled this morning waiting for George to finish up loading his car. Scary shiz cuz he was like seriously half asleep =S. La Monica's--his keys--=O Yea, omg...it's been a hectic morning...the drive seemed really quick, maybe cuz it was...we were able to talk about random things...things buggin us. I realized I missed chillin' with him...realized I let another person in my life stray away farther than I had first realized. I had a great time though just listening to music, comedy, talking (WWF N Back in the day)...I know I started drifting off somewhere on the drive...I started to think how much I needed this time to get away...to be with a friend...to be with family. Even though it was not time all to myself and not the reason to be here. I think something good is gonna come of this trip...I hope...
Jollibee---yea, pilipinos can be hella kuripot but they have to make cash somehow. "Can I get a #6 please with a side of rice?"
hehehe...yummy spaghetti! Hehe...I regret now eating there after that cuz the famz made me eat more at the prayer and at CJ's Birthday party. *RUBS BIG BELLY* Yea, I'm full!!! I don't know whether or not missing the funeral was a good thing or a bad thing cuz Jen was telling me her Lola was hella fainting and shiz and of course everyone was bawling and crying...umm...yea, I don't want to feel like that again...not for a while...Jen never knew what happened to my mom and why she died...I had to fill her in. I thought about htings and I just can't but wonder what's gonna happen on this trip...this is the longest I've ever stayed here!!!! ONE WEEK! Umm...one week without my car...DAMN! I'm staying at STacy's. I'm gonna go running as much as I can. I feel bad about missing my retreat but at the same time I have that feeling I needed to come here...we'll see...tmw is another day...good night--1:10am
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12/14/03 Day 2
Gina, put this on the tree
I woke up past noon today...omg, I'm still tired too. I went running today. This place is such a great place to go running...clean air, nice scenery, open path. I could barely run today though...all that food I ate last night...the soda I drank...rar! I couldn't help but start thinking too while I was running. I couldn't help but think about the craziness here...how much I miss __________. So close but yet so far...like everything else in my life. ::*Sigh*:: I went out with Tita, Tito, Nikki, Nate, and Stephen to go buy a X-mas tree. It's been so long since I've been near one...been ages since we've had one in our house. ::*sigh*:: I started remembering about my mom as we decorated the tree. TWO YEARS...two years...::*Deep breath*::two years...I didn't want to tell Tita I hate Christmas...why bring everyone else down with me? We're gonna go watcha movie in a while..."Last Samurai"...I think. Right now I"m in Stacy's room watching the Wizard of Oz.
Merry Christmas
...I think
--7:20pm
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I'm in my own world right now..thinking how things could be a lot better...how I missed you today. Your voice was echoing in my mind today. Thinking to myself how it'd be great to be chillin by the lake talking to you...talking to you has been a small ray of sunshine in my life. It's just sooooo like you to be that person. I know more now though...but it's okay...you're still my homie...
Good night::*sealed with a kiss*::
--10:45pm
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12/15/03 Day 3
We're going streaking
I haven't ran yet today...aren't I a fat slob? LOL...but yea...went and had breakfast with Stephen and Nikki at Denny's....Southland mall then berkeley afterwards. I spent a grip at futura and then bought an SF Giants jacket at some vintage store! It's tight! But yea, now i'm chillin again in STacy's room watching Old school.
--5:56pm
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I can't....
I hate disappointment...it's a frequent visitor in my life. Too often I have found myself at the end of a sour deal...a word broken. I set myself up though...I always do cuz I expect the best ouf of people. I expect you to keep your word. ::*sigh*:: with broken words come broken plans...fuck up my day...ugh, fuck...I'm not thinking right now...
--12:05am
