Football on the basketball court during an IM Basketball game

It would have been nice if the other team knew exactly what sport we were playing at 7:30...dang, i got tossed at least five times...one main person and another guy...slapped/knocked in the face by one of the chix...BLAH..I got bruises up the ying yang.
Great, how am I suppose to wear something sexy on saturday???

I went home last night and watched Matrix Revolutions with Jorge...movie was aight...I don't know...something just doesn't get me hyped for that movie...good stuff...

anyways, the party is coming up and I'm getting worried...*sigh*, what do I do???

Song of the moment: "Calling all girls" ATL

Mood: sleepy n sudden strikes of pain

After the rain, the sun shines than a brighter day

Every lil drip drop...won't stop...got me crying waterfalls...cuz I miss u

823ing...ain't it a bitch?!?! When I need to concentrate the most, there YOU ARE, haunting me...lurking in my damn thoughts. I don't know what it is...but I'm remembering you so often lately...

I remember...

Song of the moment: After the rain by mya

mood: missing u

I'm ready to let go. Even though I don't want to.

Auto response from EddiexBoi: I'm ready to let go. Even though I don't want to. Umm...I hope that was not a remark towards me...*sigh* did I mess up again somehow??? Damn...

It's hard when u wanna put urself out there hoping that u won't get trampled by the world but knowing full well somewhere down the line ur going to get knocked down...

Searching...somewhere...there must be answers...

"Everyday I age, I just want my life to change
I done been around, put away my childish things
Like my attitude, it ain't good to be so rude
I wanna be in love, it's my right to
And every year I seem to make some really bad mistakes
And I'm ready now, I don't wanna be this way
I'm finding out, what it's all about. Yeah
I want to be in love
What's it like to be in love? That's all I been thinking of
And I was just wondering, wil love ever know me?
And my heart is open, and I've been hoping
To find what it is everybody keep on talking 'bout
What's it like to be in love? That's all a nigga thinking of
And I was just wondering, will love ever know me?
And my heart is open, and I've been hoping
Somebody show me, what's it like to be in love?
My life has changed somehow, but still so much the same
Got a bank account, I'm still broken down
I need to know, where does this road go(hopefully someone for me)
Family, is that so much to ask Thee?
Begging please
Feel like I'm going mad
I'd trade all I have
Just to know...
I know love is something that you can't go out and buy
When you looking, always seems like it's the wrong time
But I hope one day I'll give away this heart of mine
Girl I think I'm ready
I wanna know love
What's it like to be in love
What's it like to be in love

That's the joint and that's the jam of the hour...Jagged edge's What's it like...

Yea, what is it like???

mood: don't wanna study for my midterm...*sigh*

Get Out There
So I went on my very first cruise this past weekend. A first that almost didn't happen cuz of my English midterm which coincidentally was postponed from Monday to Wednesday. But yea...a hectic friday I suppose...from basically leaving 2 in the afternoon and not really getting on the boat til 4 or 5. I feel like such a dork not having a passport but oh well...it was crazy for a while cuz I was just standing there on the loading dock and was getting talked to by everyone working there...haha yes, it was hilarious but I don't know what it was but I felt like I could stand a lil taller and walk with more courage at that moment. But yea...the cabins were hella small!!! It was given that I was going to be sleeping on one of the top bunks since (compared to others in my family) I am considered one of the skinny ones. I didn't realize that eating would be the ONLY thing I'd be doing this past weekend other than the few other activities I could do on the boat. I didn't get too seasick...maybe a couple times when I was in the cabin cuz it was rocking like a mofo but other than that I was handling it pretty well. I got to try my first taste of tiramasu which was tasty as hell. I actually took shots with my cousins and my lolo which probably will never happen again if my dad is around. I took pix at the formal but ugh...I don't like the way i look, as usual...argh! I found out new shiz this weekend about my family and I guess it was nice. I did breakdown somewhere in the midst of it all cuz well, I have a lot on my mind. It was nice walking on the deck and just watching the moon hovering over the water...I don't think I got a good shot of that but I tried...oh, that was awesome! Just so peaceful and beautiful...I did wish _____ was there with me...holding my hand or holding me close to him. Some part of me misses him deeply right now but I just don't got the nerve to say anything; what's the point...right??? If he was there maybe I wouldn't have minded as much...from the hot tub to the deck walk way to the dinners...I kinda saw ur face every now and again...and I would sorta get a lil twinge in my chest...maybe I was seasick or something or maybe I wasn't but yea, u were floating around in my mind. Girard ended up winning karaoke contest...tita myrna and the waiter...my cousin and his gf together on the top bunk...good times with the family...but I don't know about doing it again. Maybe somewhere else like vegas would have been a lil better...tahoe...we'll see...we'll see

something i wrote this weekend...for someone special...

I dream of what I wish to create...
...of the many possibilities that may someday be embarked upon
In the process of reaching my goals I search for an outlet...
...any outlet...
...any lil thing that can bring me one step closer to my dreams
Whether it attempts to capture my dream for a mere second or even a closer glance
I would take the risk...
I dare to dream regardless of the outcome because who am I without my dreams?
I'd be an empty vessel...
Dreams are creations of the of heart and imagination...
...they are more than hopes...
They are reasons to always strive for more...
10/31/03

Song of the moment: Twista ft. kayne west and jamie foxx "her favorite song"

mood: exhausted