Sometimes a person just gets so bored that they compile a list of shiz of things they like...take for example my sorry ass. (I'm at NBC studios right now with Lewis and Richard recording the proposal music...*SHOCK*)

I like a guy with a sense of humor.
I like to dance all crazy.
I like all sports especially basketball (Play or watch).
I like finding shared interests.
I like giving back to my community.
I like thinking of random things (like or dislike or whatevers)
I like looking busy even though I have nothing to do.
I like being blunt.
I like to make people smile.
I like to listen to music all the time.
I like to make people laugh.
I like to sing while I shower.
I like AIM.
I like to believe I'm immortal...lol
I like running into people I know.
I like guys who can talk about anything.
I like arguing/debating about useless subjects.
I like the smell of any cooked food in the kitchen (well, nearly everything.)
I like to believe I'm cool.
I like to get in my car and drive around town for no reason.
I like my Rav4.
I like to also have a lexus or a 4 runner or a prelude or hatchback...hahaha
I like slow jams versus any other genre.
I like to be swept off my feet and surprised with something CUTE like a visit or something.
I like to sleep in when I get the chance...whenever that is
I like the smell of Curve for men...I'd diiiiiie for it
I like giving my opinion on any given topic.
I like the colors burgundy and black.
I like to shop...
I like having someone care about me cuz then i feel special.
I like finding out that my lecture or discussion has been cancelled.
I like the little things in life cuz it makes it all worth while.
I like it when I open AOL or BOL and find mail from my friends.
I like fortune cookies just for the fortunes.
I like to cook and bake (my kids and bf/husband are going to be hella fat).
I like nerdy guys.
I like athletic guys.
I like guys who dress up in slacks and button up shirts.
I like to dress up sometimes just to feel different.
I like thinking of pointless away messages.
I like guys who can dance.
I like watching syndication tv shows like saved by the bell and full house.
I like to see the sky turn different colors at sunrise/sunset.
I like to stand in the moonlight and watch the stars shine on me.
I like to not procrastinate but I know I do.
I LOVE THE BAY AREA!
I LOVE TO BE ME!

gen0thepizzaman: nites and im gonna be dreaming of when i was truly happy, when i was with you, hehehe is that a great line or what !!!

sometimes the memories come flooding back into my mind and I remember how I have let a couple of the good guys slip through my grasp...sad, I'll never know love cuz I'm just too afraid to allow a person into my life. After this weekend though, I think I've learned to let go and when to let others in...823ing all of today=BAD. Help me!

Song of the moment: "Heave" Candlelight mix by DJ Sammy ft. Yanou

Mood: Utterly restless

Still at work...bored as hell! Well, lazy as hell. I just read through one of my friend's blogs. It's amazing how I can sometimes not be able to keep in touch with someone but just read their blog and connect with them on a different level. I guess that is why I have one. Not only for my recollection but to let the whole world know the innermost thoughts of my tormented soul. From randomness to arguments to plain ol' recollections. I take my writing seriously...I write what I know and that's all. *sigh*...reading through my friend's blog got me thinking "why am I not as lucky as he is..." and also, "I was just thinking that..." I find I have the lil things in common with him...SCARY! I don't know if it's cuz I really do like him-like him or whether or not I'm seeking comfort from someone. All I know is that it felt good to belong to someone even if it was for a short while. What's wrong with me? I think I repell guys...But yea, reading his blog is great...insight to his twisted mind. Makes me thankful for having him in my life and knowing that I can recall some of these blogged moments. Though he rarely blogs about me...I still feel compelled to read his randomness. It's very interesting...and what he speaks of is the truth. Truth: something I rarely am able to squeeze out of guys. Utterly confused at times, i can crank out a couple of good replies to shiz in my life...however, he can do it on a consistant basis. Envy? Lust? Like? Maybe I'm just starting to admit I like a guy who is my friend and only my friend...damn here we go again on this stupid relationship roller coaster. God, shoot me now before I fall in too deep. Walking this fine line between friends and MORE. Damn...gotta stop thinking before I lose my head again...STOPPPPPP

Sunday afternoon while my cousins, aunt, and uncle were at the beach a thought occurred to me...

Ninong Jun: You like it up here, don't you, Sheena?

Me: Yeah

Tita Zita: So you gonna move up here?

Me: Well...

Tita Zita: Well, you're welcome to. Move up here!

Me: Well...I was thinking about transferring to Berkeley...

Ninong Jun: Well, there you go! Berkeley is a good school...political but a good school

Tita Zita: does your dad know?

Me: Well...umm, no but yea, I plan on moving up here...maybe...later on in life

so the thought has crossed my mind...moving up north after college...or maybe even moving up north to attend college. After this last trip, though, the phrases "Fuck San Mateo", "Fuck Stanford", "Fuck ******" have entered my speech. San Fran...well, the bay area has always been my safe haven...away from the bustling metroplis I am so familiar with--Los Angeles. I guess that is what scares me the most...not moving but losing that special place I have. I don't wanna lose my paradise away from reality. I love LA...born and raised here but then again going somewhere unfamiliar and making it familiar is also great. A new start is what I need. Somewhere where I am not really known, the places are poppin, and the guys are cute...hahaha No I'm just playing...but I do want a place where I like the area and no one knows me very well. I know you've all been in this position before where you wish you were somewhere else...that special place where all your problems go away...for me, it's the bay area. I wish I didn't have school or work so i could have stayed there the whole summer. It would have been fun...relaxation *sigh*I got to know my family better this time around. This past weekend was the longest I ever stayed with Tita Zita and Ninong Jun. CRAZY TITENESS! Chillin' by the lake...it just takes my breath away. I just wish I didn't smash up my car, George and Ed didn't snub me, and I didn't get lost so much. I'm thankful that my cousins (Stephan, Stacy, and Nathan), Nikki, Eddie, and Tam were so generous with their time. I don't know anymore...the less I want to care, the more I end up caring. The less I try not to think about IT, the more I end up thinking. I keep searching for answers this whole summer, and although some questions were answer, there are plenty of questions left to be asked.

song of the moment: "Waiting" Sugar Ray

Mood: feeling the after effects of my salad...lol

BAY AREA EXCURSION!

Friday, 8/29/03:
I woke up to the loud rustling sound of a WHOLE FOODS paper bag being violently opened...Jen's doing, of course. She moved out today. I have found it very difficult to sleep latley. The little things have bugged me and has caused chronic restlessness.
I went to discussion that afternoon and participated for once. I walked in dreading my midterm and paper grade but our TA decided to hold off on giving us our lovely lil grades and give out those goodies Wednesday when we return. *sigh*.
I left lecture early, picked up Rose from work, and took off for the bay. The drive wasn't so bad...not many people on the road yet. Trying to get to San Mateo was a B*tch. It was absolutely horrible trying to follow the directions I had gotten off of yahoo. Damn, must have driven 2 to 3 hours out of my way to go there. I could have been at my aunt and uncle's by 8 but I detoured to George's house. Thank God Ed picked up his phone and directed me where to go. I hesitated for a second when I got to George's place...finally Rose got out and asked if he lived there. The guy told us that he had just stepped out and that he'd probably be back in about 45 mins. Rose and I decided to go get food. Just when we took off to go to McDee's a cop pulled me over. George had called me back so all this shiz was happening at the same time...I didn't know w hat to do. The cop said I didn't have my lights on and that I cut him off...first of all, i saw the cop earlier...I would never cut him off. Yea, he was being a b*tch to me but eventually let me go without a ticket. I almost got a 1700 dollar fine cuz my dad never gave me my new insurance slip. DAMN! But yea, I called back George and it was pointless. I wasn't goin to see him or give him his belated bday/comfort gift: a lovely basket of YUMMY Mrs. Field's/Famous Amos, Keebler/Diddy Riese cookies that I sooooo worked hard on the night before. I guess it was a wake up call...He just doesn't see me as the friend I see in him. Sad but true...sometimes i wonder why I bother. Yea, he makes me smile and stuff but half the time I worry whether or not he's after only one thing...I guess I wish someone would give me the same attention that I give others...not some bullsh*t friendship where you only participate when it is convenient to your wants and schedule.*sigh*

Sudden thuds in my chest
Lost in this abyss
No time to rest
Searchin for the pathway to your door
Speeding through these obstacles
Slamming the pedal to the floor
Sign after sign, I draw nearer to my unknown destination
Only realizing in my mind it's not real, only my imagination
I reached the world where he resides
Didn't have the heart to face him
So I chose to hide
Another achieved the deed
Only to be told to leave
For the one I came for doesn't care...

Anways, I got to my aunt's house at around 11. Craziness...Stephan told me about a house party that he's going to. I got ready and then got directions...Rose and I couldn't find the house. So I called up Ed and went to his place. My cousins, Jen and Jess, surprised me. We all headed over to Blondie's at Berkeley. Rose and I seperated cuz we were suppose to meet up with Tam and Eddie at Tam's apt. Well, yea, Eddie didn't show. But Tam was pretty entertaining that night...THANKS FOR THE MASSAGE! hahah But yea, I left his place at around 3 or 4...called up Jess to make sure I got home safely by taking the right freeways. She told me 80 east and then 880south...WRONG DIRECTIONS! I ended up in Sacramento. i was hella tired and somewhere near Hayward I swiped my car on the shoulder wall. DAMMIT! Got back to the house at around 6...there was a note on the door that says it was open...I tried the door, it was locked. WORSE NIGHT OF MY LIFE!!!

Saturday, August 30th, 2003:
Went out with the family to some Malaysian restaurant. There was a SHIM there...we just couldn't figure out if it was a he or a she. The face tells me it's a Girl but it's body tells me it's a guy. Good food!!! We headed back to the house after that...watched Stacy's cotillion video then took off for Berkeley again to meet up with Eddie. Party was great...danny was funny. He kept trying to get me to drink a lil more but yea, i knew I shouldn't since I was driving. THe guy to girl ratio sucked for the guys cuz it was hella cockfest. We ended up splitting up cuz rose isn't a partier. We all met back up with Tam later at his place. Rose and i got some sleep before we took off. But yea, I had fun...TO My Special friend of the night: Thanks for the smiles...you made a weary trip take a whole new direction. I'm glad we hung out...NO REGRETS! haha

song of the moment: "Get Low" Lil john

Mood: *smile*

Sunday, August 31st, 2003:
Rose and I split up this day...she went out with Alex and I went out with the family to Half Moon Bay. It was hella overcast but great nonetheless...I watched my aunt and uncle and cousins remind me the great feeling family brings ya. After the beach, we went to the movie theatre. Nathan, Stephan, Stacy, and I watched Jeepers Creepers II. Was it suppose to be a thriller or a comedy? I couldn't tell cuz I was cracking up the whole time. After that, we all went back to the house to chill. Stephan, Nikki, and I ended up watching a couple of movies: Bringing Down the House and Frida. I knocked out during Frida cuz I had a late ass nite the night before.

Monday, September 1st, 2003:
Lola's bday...

Rose and I went out with Stephan, Nikki, and Nate to the mall...I bought some shorts but nothing big. Then we went to Stephan's place for a bbq but we didn't stay long cuz we had to go out with Tita Zita to Ikea. I bought a couple things for my room and picked up a couple ideas on decorating in the process. Hectic IKEA...never seen one so crowded. Probably cuz it was a grand opening. Rose and I tried to make our last nite fun so we took Stephan's advice to go to the bowling alley...we went; it was closed. We went back and went to Wal-mart. haha yea, what a great monday night!!! LoL We ended up chilling back at the house.

Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003:
Rose and I were suppose to just go shopping and head back to LA but we ended up eating brunch with Stephan and then heading to santana row. Then rose and i went back to berkeley...we found th Muffin man on our way there!!! hahaha...shopped a lil bit down bancroft and telegraph. We walked a lil bit through Berkeley's campus. I felt out of place cuz i was sorta dressed up. You know my cute new black halter tie up dress with some low heels. haha YEA, I was rockin it. lol I went to Futura and bought some clothes and wore it out the store. Then i went to Urban and bought some shoes and wore those out the store. First time in my life I had ever done that. haha it was pretty cool. I debated myself whether or not I was going to get my belly button pierced. I want to...but right now, I don't know, just couldn't bring myself to go do it. We Ran into Tam on our way out of the parking lot. Took a nap after that back at the house...it was hella funny trying to leave the house. Tita Zita was hella worried I was gonna be too sleepy to drive but I was fine. The drive was short...12 to 4:30. I ditched work and stuff...got my paper back...argh, not a good grade. Played ball with Art today at wooden. HELLA FUN!!! I'm starting to get my game back. *sigh* I need to get in shape again...I'm so fat and ugly!

NOW, I'm tired....I moved into Rosey's room today cuz Jen is officially gone and I'm done with the whole Farida and bf in the same room thing...I like it in the master bedroom. *sigh* I have a lot on my mind...thinking about so much...where has my life gone? I wonder...I'm still wondering if YOU care *sigh* I need to sleep

Song of the moment: "Good girl" Vanessa Marquez

Overall song of the trip: "Light yo ass on fire" busta

Mood: Craving for a lil bit more but I know you can't give it to me