Wednesday, August 27, 2003

Last nite was fun...I guess it's God's lil way of reminding me of the lil things that make moments so memorable. Haha, yea, I crossed the line with some of my pervertedness...but when don't I? haha I still get the feeling in my stomach that Francis is holding back from me but I really really really try to make him comfortable enough to open up to me. I don't know...I guess I don't want the year to be good times here and then silence the rest of the time. Working together needs communication and whatever that may entail to you maybe different for another. The Tracy Morgan show was funny...love thath lil boy, Bobby J. And Alex Thomas...CRACKED ME UP! Not trying to be racially bias or anything but yea, black comedians liven a crowd up more than a white one. The other TV tapings I went to weren't that up beat cuz of the warm-up guy...Not to mention having Rose, Gary, and Francis sitting next to me...IT WAS CRAZY TIGHT! I was in stitches the whole time...except when I got tired. I just wanted to sleep. When I got back to the apt. I just was ready to knock out. I took a shower and was awake again but dang, I couldn't get up this morning. I must have just watched my clock/alarm go off. I heard it but I just didn't have the energy to even hit snooze. hahaha I just watched it go "EH EH EH EH EH" hahaha *sigh* It's third week...I turned in a shitty paper last week...took a midterm and knew virtually nothing...I'm so screwed. I just need to escape from LA and Azusa for a while...go to my safe haven up north, the bay area. I truly believe, more and more, that after I get out of UCLA (or maybe even during) I'm going to move up there. It'll be different...I know it's not as cracked up as I the image I have in my mind just cuz I "visit" and don't "live" there. Easy ass freeways to remember cuz they nearly all end with -80. Clean ass air! Just good times...*sigh* I regret that I didn't really open up my mind on applying for other colleges other than UCI, CSULB, and UCLA. I wanted to stay close to home but then again...I've lived here all my life and have never known anything else. I was born in LA...first three years of my life I moved around LA a lot and then finally my dad got transferred to Duarte and that's when we moved to Azusa. I have lived there since then...I finally broke out a bit on my own when I got to college. Living in the dorms for two years and working to get what i want...now living in my own apt. fending for myself. I guess I just believe that life has more to offer somehow...my dad doesn't know that I fell in love with berkeley my freshman year in college. If I ever had the chance prior to getting accepted to UCLA to see a Berk class and I actually liked it, I probably wouldn't be going here. Anyways...still searching for answers wherever and whatever they may be. Got a lot of shit to do today, doooooooood!

Song of the moment: Forgot the name of the song but it's the Mexican Chick on the new Neptune's Compilation "Good Girl"

Mood: Straight Chillin'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TAMMY TAM! Hopefully when I head up to berk, u'll be around! hehe

II my friend, George...whatever u decide, I'm gonna support ur decision and pray to God that he keeps you happy and safe in whatever and wherever the path takes you. I'll be honest though, I do miss you and wish you were around so we could play ball again. Hopefully I get to see you too when i go up north...

TV taping today...GOOD TIMES! Francis and Gary, thanks for showing rose and I all dem laughs today...good shiz. Keep the ladies smiling!

Song of the moment: All the songs from the tv taping...good shiz...flowing and dancing with marissa and francis

Mood: Smiling...for the mean while

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Back on the road again
Feeling kinda lonely
And looking for the right guy
To be mine

Friends say I'm crazy cause
Easily I fall in love
You gotta do it different
This time

Maybe we'll meet at a bar
He'll drive a funky car
Maybe we'll meet at a club
And fall so deeply in love
He'll tell me I'm the on
And we'll have so much fun
I'll be the girl of his dreams maybe

Alright maybe gonna find him today
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on
Alright baby come in
Pass my way
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on

I spoil them when I'm in love
Given them what they dream of
Sometimes it's not a good thing
But I'm blind

I love hard with everything
Giving my all
More than they
I'll take my friends' advice this time
I'll do it differently

Maybe we'll meet at a bar
He'll drive a funky car
Maybe we'll meet at a club
And fall so deeply in love
He'll tell me I'm the on
And we'll have so much fun
I'll be the girl of his dreams maybe

Alright maybe gonna find him today
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on
Alright baby come in
Pass my way
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on

My my
Looking for a guy guy
I don't want him too shy
But he's gotta have the qualities
That I like in a man
Strong, smart, affectionate
He's gotta be all for me
And I'll be too
You see happily

Maybe we'll meet at a bar
He'll drive a funky car
Maybe we'll meet at a club
And fall so deeply in love
He'll tell me I'm the on
And we'll have so much fun
I'll be the girl of his dreams maybe

Alright maybe gonna find him today
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on
Alright baby come in
Pass my way
I gotta get someone to call my lover
Yeah baby come on

Sunday, August 24, 2003

Life just hasn't been the same
Over here since you left
Varying activities but still I can't
Escape thininking about you

Over and over again I
Remember you...

Freakin' out cuz
All I ever think about is you
No, I don't want to love you but I
Think I may
Again...damn
Stuck in this freakin' hell
Your fault as usual...

UGH, midterm...FuCk!

mood: I don't wanna study