Dang, I'm soooo tired...sleep deprivation is seriously on the rise for me. It's as if my mind won't let me be...won't let soft slumber enter my world...Perhaps that's how it should always be for me...*sigh*
So last nite Aiz had some of her buddies over...and it was cool, cuz u know...they an odd bunch...there was a senior in high school...then there was a UCLA grad...so it was crazy weird nite. Nelly kept taking my shiz...irritated me a bit but sorta not. But yea, those fools didn't leave until near 1 probably and I didn't finish my reading for English and guess what...we had a quiz on the readings today...yea, pretty sickening!!! OOOH Black Eye Peas performed today for FREEEEEEEE!!!! haha Titeness...total titeness....I was like up in front with Trev, Cindy, n Ryan. It was awesome!!! "That's the joint, that's the jam, turn that shit up and play it again!!!!" Fergie, the chick in the group was awesome too....Anyways, mai flaked on the club tonight so no partying tonight...it's alright, I'm use to flakers. Tmw's PCH's banquet...hehe and afterparty, or at least that is what I'm hoping for. LoL!!! But yea yea yea...I'm a miss everyone. I got CSC banquet on Saturday so that'll be fun, I suppose. hehe anyways, I be rocking the mic and rockin the show...gotta get out...gotta make it to go!!! hahaha

Song of the moment: "Where is the love" Black Eye peas and Fergie

Mood: Still feeling the excitement of that adrenaline rush...Hip hop be living in me like no other!!!

So it's like 2 in the morning and I'm not sleepy...SO SCARY! I feel kinda out of it...Sunday night was cool cuz I went out with Mon's friends again...haha karaoking. That was sooo much fun! I mean it took my mind off somethings for the mean while but u know, some where down the line u have to face ur problems. I talked to Son that night and I burst into tears...everything is flooding into me so quickly that I can't handle any of it. That hurts...and that is just way too out of my reach. Yesterday I went out to play ball to get my frustration and overwhelming pain out...it worked for a while and then the lurking troubles loomed over me once again. I ended up riding my bike to Ralphs at like 11:30 at nite...wasn't so fun...stupid sprinklers splashed me on the corner of Westwood and Strathmore. I got to Ralphs and realized not all of it could fit in my backpack. On the way there I must have had to suck back tears three times cuz I felt like shit...sad thing is, it doesn't seems like anyone really cares. I don't blame them...it's 9th week. A lot of stuff is coming at us and I guess I'm one of the weak ones. The thing is I am not so worried about these academic things...I have other stuff on my mind. It feels like so much of these problems and pain have piled one on top of the other and they are battling with me internally. That cannot be helped, I suppose. I just wish I could move on from here. It's hard though cuz my "rock" is not around...

Get over it, Sheena!

Tonight was our lil IM ball get together...it was fun! So much food...I'll miss it all! Crazy seeing all of Peter's tanks at Gen's and Kim's. It was like going to a pet store. hehe very educational too! They got a mad ass huge apt. It's basically like a one story house...like my house. That's pretty good for them and sad for me. haha...Kid and her roomie story was pretty crazy. If I roomed with someone I didn't know and they started walking around naked and also her bf, dang, someone would be getting hurt and that wouldn't be me. GROSS!!! But yea, and then Kid and her "fish porn" hehe advertise to sell it with Peter's fish. Yea that'd be great!!!! LoL But yea, I don't feel like typing so much right now...working on something that has more importance to me right now.

Song of the moment: "foolish heart" nina

Mood: Wishing u were here with me right now...(u think I'm talking about u?...perhaps I am)

So another day passes by and I feel like...I don't know. I'm watching American Beauty right now...it just kinda matches my mood I guess. But yea, weird day...I went to bed at like 4 last nite and woke up at 11. My dad passed by and dropped off some stuff and he went to Lola's. I went out to Westwood today and finished my shirtfor George today. Okay,so get of my back people...
Anyways,ridin my bikedown bruinwalk and some cop hassled me about riding down there cuz ur not suppose to...irritated me cuz he wasriding his motorcycle everywhere too...ugh!
I ended up going out w/mon n alina and some of their friends. We went to the Grove...it was fun! Really great people! But yea, one of their friends ended up spitting water all over my back which was fine hahah and funny. We got lost on the way there although I knew how to get there...that was totally funny asking that one guy for directions to get to fairfax and he was giving us directions to the gas station.The other lady we asked was funny cuz Alina was about to piss in her pants. When we were at the Grove, these guys were hitting on me and I waslike, sorry,I'mseeingsomeone and they weren't tryin to hear it...UGH

But yea...me try and sleep now

Mood:I don'twanna talkabout it...