so here's the shizzy load on what happened upon arriving home on thursday...yes, I was still in a state of confusion but realized that I should be home for a while. The aroma of my room filled with so many memories just embraced me that day...the walls are new and unfamiliar at times...but that's what happens when u have to move on in ur life...things need to change. But yea, I decided to pass by GHS and see the boys tennis team but I came just as they were finishing. It was cool cuz I ran into Christian...yea, a lil young for my age but then again, age is never really an issue anymore only cuz what matters is the feelings, right? Well, yea, anyways...sooooo cute how he tried to be all slick and hit on me but it's alright...he's a good friend from high school and a good guy...however, my judgement in guys are never really all that good to begin with. We ended up talking on the phone that night for like two hours...it was nice. Yea, well, Friday afternoon I went to go see the boys play again at Nogales...Christian really isn't that good in tennis. He has no form, no movement. He basically blocks the shots back. He would have more power in his serve if it was higher and his follow through was more overhead but he doesn't. He needs to extend his arms when he hits too. Badly needs work on the backhand...that one handed shiz isn't working for him. Anyways, I had my first game that night at Cal Poly Pomona...awww, miss those days when I actually hung out there...back in high school. hahaha Yea, where I ended up at some Halloween party...chillin on campus waiting for Adrian to get off work...playing pool in the rec room while guys tried to hit me up and take me on "a tour of campus". haha Yea, those were the days...anyways...game was at 9 at nite...so many great ball players there. Dang, I was mesmorized by their moves and looks...haha yea, okay, so I had to throw that out there...We ended up playing Cal Poly's chix team...they had some good people and they were leading us for a while but we got back into it. At one point I missed a three and a CP girl got the rebound...I knocked out of her hands though and I was trying to get possession of it but couldn't I knocked it to Speedy and some girl pushed me from behind...I was laid out on my back and I just kicked up and ran back to our side...the whole crowd went crazy cuz they didn't think a girl could do the chinese kick up especially in a bball game. haha that was so awesome. Ran into some of Arlyne's friends and they saw that too...they called me kung-fu chick and the ref, the next day, called me the chinese hand stand girl. Haha but yea, we won that game. Saturday we had two games, one at 12 and one at 6. The one at twelve was against Long Beach...we lost huge...they ran us and most of the mistakes were our own so that really burned me. I ended up going to brea afterwards with Mai, did a lil shopping and came back. I was proud of myself cuz I didn't buy anything. Anyways...game at 6 was against Fullerton Junior College Alumni...it's their actual bball team. They weren't that good but once again we were making mistakes and we beat ourselves...plus, we were tired from the first game cuz they ran us really well. I didn't care much but then we decided to head to Red Lobster afterwards. Jon and Chris and Sean came along. I ended up taking Jon and Sean in my car and we headed to Red Lobster but it was packed. We went to Tommy's afterwards but decided when we got there to head to Carl's Jr. Afterwards we headed to West Covina Lanes...awww, miss that place. Yea, bowling was fun....the names...omg the names!!! haha I went from Sheena to Sheezam...to Sheezam Jizz...to Sheezam Jizzum...to Itadawasha or some japanese thing. I was even at one point, the Porno title, Armagedonya...lol...Jon is hilarious. Him and his torque. It was fun just hanging out and bowling with everyone...messing around with the bowling balls and stuff. Yea! I took Jon home afterwards...he lives in some nice homes...didn't know Azusa had homes like that. I went home afterwards and did some errands and went to bed hella late only to get up at 6 for a game that was at 8 at Cal Poly today. Yea, great game. We were losing, then we were winning then we tied. Overtime: 3:00 MINUTES!!! We lost by one point...SAD!!! Pissed out of my mind but whatever...went home, packed up my bags, packed up my car...picked up rose, went to church...got dismissed, waited for the car that blocked me in to actually leave...Wal-mart...gas station then we were on our way! Slept for two hours, I believe and then went out with Chris to get a manicure and pedicure. My first time...it was really good feeling! Dropped her off so she could pack and get some sleep. I went back to the dorms...rose and I decided to eat at noodle planet so yea...YUMMY! Hadn't had duck for a while...sad for rose having to watch me eat it! LoL But yea...it's 9 and i should get some rest but I'm not all that tired...I should though since I'm gonna drive the second half to san fran. Yea, a change of scenery is maybe a good thing for me...get away from things right now instead of having my mind so preoccupied with *it*! *sigh*...I'm seriously still thinking to myself, "what does this mean?" I just want an answer...unfortunately I think I know what the answer is...it means nothing...*sigh* *frown*
Off to bed now to stay with my thoughts and what not....

Song of the moment: "Summertime in the LBC" by The Dove Shack f\Arnita Porter of YN-Vee?

Lyrics: Now me and my girls are deep
In a '94 Wrangler jeep
Flow so long thru Long Beach
Daisy Dukes gets props
Hair and nails fresh from the shop
And we're at the bombest spot
Called the shack

Mood: Still waiting for the time to come...I'm beginning to think I mean nothing to u