I hate this computer...haha my bro's comp. lags soooo much and it looks like I can't type...aRGHHHHHHH...okay, whatever!!!
I went to Nogales today and found the cutest shirts!!! Can't wait to get back to school to show 'em off! ahhaha...I got my eyes checked at Del Amo again....surprisingly my eyes haven't changed one bit from last year...crazy!!! YEA FOR ME.
I went to Santa Anita with Mai today...I filled her in on the *ahem* stuff that's been going on with me lately. She agrees wih me that...well, let's just say she thinks I'm right. I got a nice "hello" call from George today. Haha, he's struggling at Circus Circus, trying to win his niece a lil something something. His phone call made my day...it was nice to hear a friendly hello. Oh man, I miss Vegas...this use to be our family time...this very three day weekend: a combo of mom's bday/vday/vacation trip for the whole family. We'd stay at Circus Circus and Rain and I would compete to see who would win the most stuffed animals. The last time went there was last year during spring break...we started our drive at like 5pm and we got there at like 9 or 10...it kinda sucked. Nothing to do cuz everything was closed except the slots. We didnt' go to Circus Circus like I usually did...My fave place to go to...so many memories. I remember Zahid and Mai siting on the rocks by I think it was mandalay bay or some shiz like that...Zahid and his wanderig hands...yup...That was a nice night...wandering the city just admiring the beauty of the bright lights. I remember falling asleep on James' shoulder...while Arlyne fell asleep on the other. Yea, I remember feeling all grimy and stuff afterwards then eating at Denny's by ontario mills. That was fun! Actually, talking with Mai today was fun...we're planning road trip for spring break! No more San Diego and Vegas...this time, we're heading up north...haha no, not that north...SAN FRANCISCO...the BAY AREA!!! YUP! I can't wait...dood, the bay is fun by itself but then having Mai around...SHOOOT...BOMBASS TRIP!!! OH, I can't wait! I wonder if Eddie will be up at Berk at that time...probably not but oh well...it's just great to explore up there. Anyways...nothing else to say today...just that I miss school now...haha not the work, just the place...the people...the feeling I get when I'm there. SO yea...until then...*Muahs* to all

Song of the moment: "Summertime" By Jamie Foxx

Mood: 823

It's valentine's day...I'm home...doing nothing...but speding time catching up on my tv and writing in my blog. SIMPLY PATHETIC! *sigh* I guess I expected it cuz that's how it always is. I kinda wish I had gone to the Samahang party tonight but yea, I don't wanna go alone and I don't think I wanna go with friends again. The first time at Club Lush was kinda bad...I was a third wheel...NO ONE wanted to dance with me and I just felt stupid as hell. I really should take note from the movie I watched last night...haha remember why I am alone...haha...cuz I'm too _____. U can fill in the blank. Bu yea. I have had soooo much time to hink today. U wouldn't even believe how crazy my thoughts have been today. Seeing all these lovey dovey couples made me realize that I know now what I am looking for in a guy...a mix of old things...a mix of new things...a mix of past mistakes. Trust use to be a big thing orme but I realize now that I gotta accept the fact that guys are gonna lie especially to me. Cuz I know, I ain't always truthful but it is only when I think it'll hurt the other person. I still am looking for that great personality that puts a smile on my face. I guess I am trying to give others what I want given to me...like today...I know I forgot to hand ou most of my valentine's and I know it made some people uncomfortable...but that wasn't my intenition. I wanted to make sure that can always count on me being there for u...being the one that u can turn to. And yes, I admit I eit some horrific moods attimes but yea, that's me...that's anyone...and I know soe ties u guys can act that way to me...it's normal right? I figured out after playingin IM ball, watching the floor team, and just playing horse with george that I want me an athletic guy who shares the same or at least willing to share sports with me...ESPECIALLY BASKETBALL U know how awesome it feels to be able to laugh about stupid lil things u did when u played a game or match? I just love that feelings cuz it just shows u can find something new to draw u closer and closer to him...Sad though that I'm still trying to find someone to share that "awesomeness" with! Oh gosh, I'm gonna go exercising from now on...just in case someone just happens to come along hah..I'll be in shape for him. YEA YEA..WOO WOO...OH gosh, Intelligence is such an important factor...God, something Mike was missing. No offense to him whatsoever...I mean yea, I loved him and all but he wasn't exactly bright. It's annoying though to receive all these letters that were full of all these typos or misspelled words. I mean yea, the first leter like that is cute cuz it shows how fallible a person is but the 3rd, 4th,5th...etc time. When I would talk about my Chem class or something from LS...something that was sort of common sense but not...he would give me a blank stare and just be like, "huh?" It was just soooo weird after a while when he didn't know about technology that is commonly used today...it's like talking to someone from the fifties who would be hella surprsed by colored tv or some shiz like that. Looks matter a bit...but not really...I t hink I've only gone out with like one guy or two guys that were cute out of all the ex's, friends....blah blah u know???? The humor factor...u gotta be able to make me smile...laugh...make me feel good inside..I want someone to be able to share my stupidity with..the beautiful music that flows through me (or through my winamp). "I want u to want me.... I need u to need me... want u to love me..I'm begging u to beg me..." I think itwas save ferris..that sang that song. Wow, I've been thinking up things to write on this blog for about an hour...haha, and I"m still at a loss.
DOOD...this weekend is going to be devoted to continue finishing my room...It will be *heaven* sooner or later...I"m going to relax this weekend..probably finish the shirts I started to make...Probably make a couple pillows or something to like cheer up some of my friends...ahha u know u are!!! God, I can't sing this weekend though..my throat is irritated cuz I was singing yesterday when it was still sore. Oh gosh, my tongue is sill singed from yesterday...gross, huh? I can't eat anything! It just tastes funky unless I stick the food on the back on my tongue. EWWWW!!!! Anyways...I've wasted enough of ur time and my time on this...Mahal kita!!! Happy VDAY!

Song of the moment:"My stupid mouth" BY John Mayer...hahah AGAIN

Song lyrics: "My stupid mouth has got me in trouble again...I said too much...y is always my fault..."

Mood: Will u be my valentine? =*( Yea, I thought so

It's 1:27am...I just had a great night out...it's been a while since I had one of those. The day progressed nicely today...from going to discussion in the morning and seeing my HOT ABERCROMBIE LIKE TA...to three hours of blissful work....to making chrisma happy with a valentine...to being hit on in front of the coop...to getting a B on my midterm...to playing ball with George and BEATING HIM ZIP to HORSE...to a cute chick flick...to burning my tongue at relaxtation...to smoothies at puzzles...to a very comforting hug from George. U can't even begin to imagine how good it feels right now...it's nice to find a new friend in someone I didn't think I'd ever know. I'm so glad I did though...I'm really glad that Moniqua and I couldn't find a tennis court to play on and ended up playing with U that one day. I haven't been this comfortable with a guy in a while and u made it so easy to open up....on and off the court. I think what I told u in the movies summed it up for me...u were like a big teddy bear...so warm and so cozy, I just felt really comfortable. At Relaxtation, it got hard for me to talk about my ex's because of all the sadness they put me through...It made me feel better that u were able to open up to me a lil bit too...as if to ensure me I wasn't alone. Today's a hard day for me...being my mom's birthday...being a day that I've been hurt by guys on...thanks for making it easier
Hehehe, I hope I didn't get u sick...I hope u have a safe trip and that everything works out for u. I think u deserve it...to know what's going on and to be happy with ur time at home this weekend. Until then, I'll be practicing that corner shot awaiting ur return. Thanx...u r the sweetest! =)

Song of the moment: "My stupid mouth" John Mayer

Song lyrics: "My stupid mouth...has got me in trouble again...." Yea ain't it always like that

Mood: mixed emotions...good/bad

Wow, i must be bored or have a lot to talk about if I'm writing another blog within an hour of my last blog...hahaha

anyways, I just met up with Chrisma right now...it was cool giving her valentine's gift. She was having a hella bad day which sux...but I guess I made her day. I gave this lil package thingy I made. It was a cherub heart dish with a blue angel that was holding a pillow that read "LOVE" in pink writing. I put a clear heart container filled with mnm's on the angel's lap and on each paw there was a SUM 41 pin of each member of the band cuz it's her new MAN OBSESSION!!! haha J/p with u Chris! But yea, It was nice to hear that she liked it cuz I seriously get happy when my friends are happy. If I helped with that happiness in anyway...that makes me feel good. So, yea! She wants to see a movie with me tonight too...but it depends what time and if I really am going alone or what not...u know? Yea, whatever! haha But it felt good just spilling my guts out to her with my guy probs right now or situations whatever, u know? With valentine's coming up, she just totally understood what I was talking about. It was funny, cuz while were talking in Ackerman union by the coop, some random security guard...probably around the early 20 age range, totally came up to me and said: "Can I hit u up at ur dorm?" I was like, blank stare on my face and couldn't believe he was hitting on me like that. I was like: "Umm...I'm kinda seeing someone right now...sorry" I didn't want to be rude and all u know? Cuz like I don't give out my shit that easily especially to some random guy. He was all: "Dang, like everyone is seeing someone...come on, let me hit u up. I just wanna be ur friend and talk about UCLA and all...HA, u never heard that one before huh?" haha I was like, smiling and laughing. I had to hand it to the guy, he tried..he really did. But Sorry...can't go out like that, u know? Anyways, I better get ready to head out to class. Com. Stud...dang, I love that class...more and more insight to stuff I want to know...yea, even the mass media thing is interesting. I think I've found my home in that class.

Song of the moment: Literally playing on my mp3 player is "Faded Pictures" Case ft/ joe

Song lyrics: Faded pictures in a broken glass...like a mirror revealing what the woman is feeling...was it someone from a distant past...cuz it's breaking my heart...just to watch u stare into the glass

Mood: Happy that I made Chrisma smile! she's the best counsler in the world!!!

I'm at work right now...just chilling cuz I forgot that I usually start at 11 on thursdays and not 10...I came in at 9:30...haha oh well, I was on the clock. Its a nice overshadowish type of day...no rain yet...and I am hoping that it stays that way. My IM game got cancelled today =*( bummer! I think it isn't going to rain today so maybe my floor game will be on. YEA YEA! I'm so rejuvinated today...not tired...I mean I only had a couple hours of sleep too...except for that long ass nap I had last nite...haha YEA YEA! Oh gosh...I hate being this happy-knowing something will most likely bring me down later. BLEGH! Life story retold: Sheena is happy...then something happens and she is back to being weird...
Wow...I'm sooo out of it!!!!

Song of the moment: If u love me...I don't think that is right but it's by Jamie fox

Song lyrics are so mesmerizing that I totally forgot what they were lol

Mood: too happy for words =P

I can't believe things right now...my mind and heart are going towards two different paths right now...people from the past...people from the present...what am I suppose to do about it? I guess I just wish I knew what was going on around here. I feel a lil played around with but at the same time, it makes me happy not knowing what anything means or where things are headed. Keeping me on my toes and just making me realize what I should and shouldn't treasure. Things from the past are popping up again and I swear, it's coming at the wrong time. The pain of being played for the fool...pain being turned away from something that could have been great...memories of goodbyes and saddening words. It's taken me so long to finally realize that the relationships I've had were just beginner's dating even the only TRUE LOVE I've had seems like a fake. Mike-wow, that was an on and off thing for years but I was just hiding things from myself thinking that he could always change...God, was I ever wrong about him. He had taken a change for the worse and had taken me along for the ride not knowing that it wasn't a joyride...more drama than I needed. I think I've played the role of the "other girl" way too many times and was so oblivious that I didn't know I was the other girl...=*(, sad to say...I still have so much to learn about being in a relationship...it's sad to think about another valentine's day going by that is spent with merely friends. Not saying that being with friends is bad...it's just it would be nice to say I have a valentine...one that I can say is so truly special and just one lil hug could bring so much to me. But I have to face it...I've brought it upon myself. I chase guys away cuz I'm scared of things working out for the better...the downfall of sheena. I turn an ugly mood cuz I just get frightened by the fact that maybe this might be it for me. After Will I have changed a bit...trying to be a lil bit more open and less bitchy. I still get a lil hurt when I see him because I feel used in the sense that we just didn't know each other well enough to say the things we had said or done the things that we did. I wouldn't have forgiven myself if I had let things go past that. U know what really gets to me sometimes...it's the fact that guys tell me that anyone would kill to have a girl like me: nice, athletic, cooks, smart, pretty...u know? And it's sad to say that I end up crying about it sometimes because I hate not being included...none of what I'm writing right now makes sense but it does make sense to me. Words open the gates to my heart and mind...see the inner deep thoughts into a soul scorned by trust and love...passion rushes through her veins and all she desires is to be liked. I guess I'm asking for too much. I'm looking for answers but in all the wrong places. I'm looking for some kind of sign when I know I should just be patient about the whole thing and let things die down before I jump into anything that I'm not ready to get into. Taking one step at a time but we'll see where this chaos is taking me...I'm curious to find out...

Song of the moment: "infatuation" jamie foxx

song lyrics: "I have waited for so long...to hear u say...I want to spend my whole life with u...yes I do...Well, I don't mean to push...I know ur on the go....but there's just one thing I have to know...is it just infatuation?

mood: just chillin and wondering...what does it all mean?

OMG, my mind is on flipmode...not because of papers or midterms, just with life in general. I don't know how to explain it but when the time comes, the story will be told. I feel like I'm back in high school dealing with this shiz...

Someone made my day today...yes, it was u George! Thanx for the candy and the cold-eez...my throat feels a lil better now. How about we make a deal...loser owes the winner a smoothie? haha, or how about I just be nice and give u one so u don't feel bad the next time I kick ur ass?

I'm stuck at my computer trying to figure out the words that need to be arranged to get me an A in this class...aiyah! Talagang na hihiya ako...did I spell that right? I don't know, but I know how to say it at least. After tmw I can relax again and just worry about other situations.

The Valentine's countdown is on...3 days to go...and still, zero valentines coming my way...nothing out of the ordinary I guess but I hoped this year would be different. Thought I could get lucky.

Song of the moment: Unbelievable by Jonathan Keyes

Song Lyrics: I met a beautiful girl, just the other day...I thought she was pretty, fine in every way....we flirted for a bit, it was really going great...I was about to ask her if she'd go out on a date...and then she said, in that awkward tone, "u remind me of my bf back at home." OMG, what should I do, I think I'm so in love with u, ur unbelievable...OMG, what should I do, I think I'm so in love with u, ur unbelievable...I couldn't believe what I had heard, for the girl I love was taken...I must have been mistaken...my hopes and dreams were shaking...maybe I heard wrong, perhaps it was a dream...so I asked her again if she'd go out for ice cream...and then she said, in that awkward tone, "u remind me of my bf back at home." OMG, what should I do, I think I'm so in love with u, ur unbelievable...OMG, what should I do, I think I'm so in love with u, ur unbelievable...what can I do...to be with u? OMG, what should I do, I think I'm so in love with u, ur unbelievable...OMG, what should I do, I think I'm so in love with u, ur unbelievable...

Mood: wondering...Hoping...just maybe >-<

GEORGE DID NOT BEAT ME!!!
I will get u next time!!!!

HE WILL GET HIS ASS KICKED SOOOOOOOON!!!

I have been sent to bed on account of my horrendous coughing...but not without accomplishing some good things today. I woke up at 4 something this morn to finish studying for a midterm which I feel I did bad on...*sigh* I guess I'll take that class pass/no pass. My cough has grown today into a phlegmy situation which is pretty gross if I put it that way but I have to be truthful, I just ain't feeling well. Anyways, my little cold prevented me from going to rite aid to get some meds which is alright...I guess I can survive. I went to our boys floor IM game...what a game! So many mistakes and so many good comebacks...we won, 28-16. It is their first win this season...mark played...which is cool. I am glad he owned up to his commitment to play on the floor team. He was awesome! So was Anthony, Ryan, Trevor, Kevin, and Nick...but dang, mark was playing all positions. He rebounded on the defensive end and led the break away as the point guard and then at some lengths he even became shooting guard. He definitely played the center in this game. I was very amazed...in fact, a lil intrigued. I don't know what it is about sports, especially basketball, but I find it attractive in a guy hahah...funny, don't u think? But I'm not saying anything about Mark...It came to my attention though that it would be nice to have a guy like that to play ball w/every now and then...u know, competitiveness is fun when it is between a gf and bf. Oh well...haven't had that yet. well, a lil with gabe and the whole wrestling thing but whatevers...haha
I have been trying to write my facilitation notes all night but I've been distracted so many times that it's basically half done. i just can't see straight lately...reasons known and unknown. But yea, a nice surprise was at my door tonight-George, the RCA was here to invite me to a game of horse...haha, aww, kicking his ass the first time was fun but today was different. He was winning H to HORS...but I got back into the game scoring hella shots in a row...I got him to HORS but dang...I still lost. It was nice though...just to chill with someone new. However, I am determined next time to beat him. I'll be practicing! LoL
Friday is Valentine's day...once again it will be spent alone...bummer! It's also Mom's birthday...yea...faded pictures in a broken glass...*sigh* I will never have another sentimental holiday. *sigh* haha I need a bf lol j/p...I jsut need a guy friend to chill with...oh well, til then!
I am on meds right now...my cold is kinda funky. I think I should hit the sack early...til then, sweet dreams everyone!

song of the moment: "Real love" mary j. blige

lyrics: I got to have a real love...love so true and oooh baby...I thought I had the answers to the questions in my mind....real love, ohhh I'm searching for a real love, someone to set my heart with REAL LOVE awww, I'm searching for a real love...

Mood of the moment: Determined...to beat George once again =P