Oooh, I actually read for com. stud. today...**shock**!!! Anyways, this weekend was our winter retreat for PCH. It was pretty fun. Rain drove Jing, Arlyne, and I to Palm Springs. We got there hella early so we decided to go to Cabazon while the rest of the PCHers got there. It was funny cuz some worker at Polo was like hitting on me and stuff...it was pretty gross. He got my name wrong and I think while I was mentioning it to Arlyne on our way out, one of the other workers heard me and told the guy that was hitting on me about it. I was like on the other side of Cabazon already in some music store when that guy came up behind me and apologized about getting my name wrong. It was kinda scary. The next day when we went back to Cabazon, he remembered me and was mentioning Jordan boots or whathever...I was like, yea sure...whatever. Well, anyways, back to Saturday night...arlyne and I got in the room and just chilled until everyone else got there. It was pretty funny having mariefe bein the first one to come in cuz she had to go pee so badly. We went out to Denny's that night and just had so much fun. Richard was getting picked on as usual. The thugsters were taking pix. Richelle appears to look like tina fey from SNL. I was hiding richard's phone the whole time. Natalie was getting filled with oil...we all rode back to the room. That night was just a lil bit hard for me...I wasn't having one of my good moods for some reason. But Yea, Richard did this scenario thingy that was suppose to bring us together but it just made me feel more lonely and apart. People were talking about how their families were important and how they'd want to have one more chance to see them or do the big events of their lives. I just didn't care...I didn't want to mention to them that I would have rather died. I want to be with my mom. I would have given up my life vest to another person cuz I knwo they have more to give in this life than I do. I have lived my life as best as I could and that is more to say than others can. I wouldn't be able to live with myself knowing that one of them wasn't there to live the rest of their life. I couldnt' do that to myself. I would rather be with my mom cuz someday I know, I'll meet up with people in my life again. Maybe not in heaven but in some alternate world that we call an afterlife. Well, whatever...I must have bursted out crying three or four times. I got irritated so I tried to sleep on the sofa seats but then there was CRANIUM...yea...the odd chants of "Club cranium!" in my sleep was rather funny...but very disturbing...I just wanted the night to be over due to the low self esteem I had at that moment. I didn't like it one bit but mentioning anything would make me feel bad that I was trying to kill their fun or what not. Ooh, the donuts I made for the trip were complimented on a number of occasions..however, I do not know if they were lying or not. I suppose they weren't but oh well...
Sunday was fun cuz we got up and we answered these questions and then we ended up watching "Science of the Sexes" it was pretty interesting. Ever see a catscan of people having sex? Yea, well we went to A&W to eat after that. "HOMIES" oh yea, if u don't get it...then tough...it's a PCH kind of thing. "Rollin' with the homies"...I still have my two with me...haha my good luck charms. After that we went to Casino Morongo...my first gambling experience was not profitable nor exciting really. I was waiting for the "clink clink" but all I heard was the "Wrinkle wrinkle" they don't use coins like vegas does...u use dollar bills which pretty muched sucked. I did get to pull on the slot machine levers. After that I smelled like cigarette smoke...I didn't like that one bit. We went back to Cabazon after taht...I didnt' buy anyting but was close to it...too bad they didn't have my sizes. We left after that. I rode with Robyn, Gary, and Natalie. Rain ended up driving home later on. PCH ended up eatin in West Cove at DJ Bibingkahan...good food, bad service. They were so mean to us. But yea, that was fun...being home and having them with me. I cam back to UCLA today...after making some oily ass donuts but yea...we'll see how well those go on thursday. anyways, I am tired so I'm going to head to sleep now...nitey nite...Hugs and kisses and all that mushy good stuff

Song of the moment: One of the muffin songs but I can't remember which...

Song lyrics: "How can u not like muffins when we are delicate and sweet..how can u not like muffins when we are so good to eat...muffins come in different flavors and sizes too...if u don't like one, try another kind...try another kind...it's really rude to hate muffins after we so like u...muffins are great kinds of people and we so like u..."

Mood: Damn muffin song in my head!! haha Loving mood right now