About 12:20am...yea, today was mostly bad...
TODAY was the SC game...and when I say that, I really do mean their game. Kevin picked me up at around 10 something this morn...we picked up Toni and then we picked up Chrisma...it was kewl rollin in Kevin's car cuz he gots a tv in there so we were watching Lion King...haha. Neways, we got to the exit at around 11:30...but that didn't help cuz by the time we got into the Rose bowl, it was half time...by that time SC had already started the massacre leading us I believe it was 7 to 28...just grew worse after that...I think the final score was 50 something to 7. A horrible game...so not worth it's hype and money towards it.
I was worried the whole game that I'd see **someone** I didn't want to see...but I think that would have been a lesser problem thant the killing feat on the turf. We were whomped on our ass'. We left at the top of the fourth quarter. UGH, yea, that's how it goes...
guess who called of all days-MIKE. He came to visit...wow, a first for everything. He is just sooooooo...GRRR...how dare he think that just cuz we had a past that constitutes a future also. I'm nearly over it...I suppose or I am over it but choose to live in a crazy denial in order to hold on to someone who may actually care about me. Whatever! He tried to act as if we were still together but NO...I won't allow it...U R not a part of my life like that any longer. He tried to kiss me and I shyed away...he doesn't deserve me. U can't keep breaking my heart and expect me to be whole around u...::sigh:: a never ending cycle...I choose to decline ur offer...this situation is TBC...like everything else in my life.
TMW is hardcore day...which means no fun...midterm monday...paper due wednesday...women's studies due wednesday also...GOTTA DO THIS!
Rose was viewing "What Dreams May Come". Mike said it was a good movie...and I agree...it captured a part of me that's been pretty hidden for a while. It dredged up feelings about my mom and how much I miss her...feelings for Mike that live in the past and not now....one line hit me hard..."a whole human life is just a heartbeat here in heaven..." If someone could tell me that, I'd be in love forever...I'd be at ur disposable at the drop of a pin. ::sigh:: makes me think if my husband would be able to do the same thing that Robin Williams did for "Annie"....**clutches chest** that was sooooo sweet.
Song of the moment: "Thru the Rain" Mariah Carey
Quote of the moment: "A whole human life is just a heartbeat here in heaven..."
Mood: flustered
